I Leave My Nest

I leave my nest tomorrow. The road will be long, but worth every mile. My parents are coming with me. I'm truly blessed to have them in my life. They've been unbelievably supportive of every decision I've made since I started community college in winter of 2007...As I sit here, on my bed, childhood memories rush through my mind like water rushes through a broken dam. I've let down my guard and I'm allowing myself to feel. I laugh and I cry. I've been through so much bullshit, this blessing is actually hard for me to accept...I still feel like I'm wandering through life without purpose, but this move feels right. That little voice inside my head has tried to break me down with negative thoughts lately, but I haven't allowed fear of change to get the best of me. I'm starting to see that life is about trials and tribulations, but with love we can overcome.

She's Been Right All Along

Oh my God, this week has been a battle! I'm glad none of my friends live close enough to hear my mother and I bicker. Every time my mom tells me to do something, I put up a fight thinking I'm right. After doing, whatever it is we were arguing about, my way, I realize that I should just give in because she is in fact always right! I have to admit that her way of doing things tends to produce satisfying outcomes. But I don't think about this. I'm quick to think she does or says things to embarrass me, or push my buttons, when she's actually just looking out for my best interest. We live and we learn. LOL!

I'm Doing Something Right...

My "Bon Voyage Party" was great. What party? My going away party!  It was yesterday at my friend Holly's house. She's awesome by the way. Anyway, a few of my good friends came to hangout with me before my move to Berkeley next week. We drank some wine, ate "Brandycake", talked about school, and opened cool gifts. It feels really good to know how much people care about me.

Every gift was special. I'm especially fond of the Sony Reader Touch Edition my sisters gifted me with, and the grey winter coat my good friend, Heather, gave me. They will definitely come in handy when school starts. Oh, I also like the gift cards, soft black scarf, photo calender of me, laundry and school supplies...okay, so I like everything! I really was only expecting like one gift...the gift of "love". Awww! LOL! So, knowing that people went out of their way to provide me with items I will need to be secure, pleases me. It shows that I'm doing something right and that I am worthy of affection. Okay, I know...my low self-esteem is showing!

How are all of you doing, anyway? Any new things planned for the year? I wish you all much success in all your endeavors! Stay up! ~Bee