Why Is This Feeling?

The actions I was upset about were of no importance compared to his words. As I read his e-mail responses, I felt like all the sadness had gathered in my chest and had burned a hole through it. I don't know how to describe it, but the more I cried, in my dark quiet room, the feeling went away. How do my sisters and other people do it? You know, create and maintain relationships. Many times I wish I wouldn't feel or care about what other people thought of me. But I do and it sucks for me because I just realized that I'm always going to get hurt. I guess the best thing to do is to find a way to cope with it and move on. I'm not going to get hurt.